You will find in life
that love is not perfect. Love can be something great but it can also hurt like
a bitch all at the same time, it can cut you so deep that you just want to
crawl in a hole and die and not try again. Most of the time though true love is
worth the pain, not all times, but most times. In the case of my first love it
wasn’t worth the pain but it taught me valuable lessons.
It was my first week as a
freshman at East Davidson High School in Thomasville, North Carolina. It
started out okay, I met a lot of new people and I liked most of my classes. I
didn’t really feel scared about starting high school because I had my cousin
Marie to talk to if I needed her. Marie was cool somewhat, she was a junior
with red hair and she was short like me. The only bad thing about my cousin is
she had a reputation of sleeping around at East.
My week started out great
until that third day of school when I laid eyes on him and my heart stopped. By
him I mean Billy Everett. Billy Everett wasn’t the typical jock at East but he
was popular.
He stood about five foot
four inches tall with tan skin and big strong muscles. His hair was straight
and brown and his eyes were a dark sexy brown. He was very attractive, all the
girls liked him and wanted him and the sad part was almost all the girls at
East Davidson High School had him at least once, he was what you would call a
man hoe. He loved sex but was afraid of commitment.
Billy and my friends Leigh and Tony and
I all had lunch together that first semester and each day at lunch I would sit with them and occasionally talk
to Billy. Our conversations would always
start out random but that was just Billy. Our conversations would range from
things like class, the military and anime cartoons. Every time I talked to him
I wanted to know more and more about him.
It was toward the middle
of September and all I could do was think about Billy and I couldn’t figure out
why. I had an amazing boyfriend named Roy so why could I not get this guy out
of my head? I wondered what I should do. One morning I asked Marie what I
should do because she knew him a little too well. I mean she had dated him
once.
“Beka just try to forget about him, yes
he may look sexy but he is a man hoe and an ass to girls. Trust me, I know I
dated him and truthfully he would probably never go for a girl like you. You
are fourteen and he is seventeen so just forget it.”
I knew she was probably right but I still gave him my
number after fourth period that day anyway,
I secretly wanted her to be wrong and for some reason I liked him more
than Roy I guess it was because I hardly ever got to see Roy and I got to see
Billy every day.
Later that night about
six o’clock my phone rung, I was doing math homework so I debated on answering
it for a few seconds, finally I decided sure why not. I was in shock when I did
because it was Billy. He had just gotten off of work, which at that time was
working as a landscaper. We talked for a few minutes then I sadly went back to
my algebra homework. Which sucked because math was one of my worst subjects.
After that night Billy and I became good
friends and we would talk at lunch and on the phone sometimes at night. We just
didn’t let his normal friends know because I was not what you would say
popular. His friends consisted of Ian Johnson- A tall skinny basketball player,
Tony Stevens- The average guy that sits with us at lunch, Katie Goings- A Stuck
up sophomore that loved Billy and Smink Bowers- The nerdy kid who actually was
not that bad. Smink was actually cool just like Tony except unlike Tony, Smink
didn’t have a secret crush on me.
A couple days later at lunch Leigh,
Tony, Billy and I were sitting outside at the picnic tables when I asked Billy
“How is your day going so far?”
“Boring as ever, how is yours?”
“Sucky, I hate my math class.” I responded.
Billy then went to another table that had a bunch of
girls sitting at it and started to flirt and talk about partying. He could
never stay on one topic and he was such a big flirt. That is who he was but I
didn’t mind. I was day dreaming about Billy when Leigh sat down beside me.
“Beka, Tony is so cute
and I want to talk to him I just don’t know how.”
“Girl I have known you since sixth grade and you have
never been shy before. Just go talk to him like you would any other guy.”
For once she
took my advice and soon after those two became an item even though they only
lasted a couple months because they were too much alike.
Months passed and the semester was
almost over. It was December a couple nights before Christmas and Billy called
me and asked to come over to my house to hang out. My mom said sure because she
was ready to meet the boy that she heard me talk about all the time and she
couldn’t stand Roy. We had to get a few things at Wal-Mart so Billy decided to
meet us there so he could follow us back to my house.
Right off the bat my mom liked him. She
liked his good looks and his charming personality, she even insisted that I
dump Roy for him. Once we got back to my house we hung out for a bit, laughed
about crazy stuff, and talked about everything under the sun he even found my
tickle spot and rolled me off the couch. I am still lucky I didn’t end up with
a bruise from that.
When it was time for him to leave he
looked at me like he was waiting for me to escort him out, but my dummy
self-sat on the couch
and watched him leave. Later that night he called me,
“Hey I was wanting you to follow me outside.” I smiled
to myself and asked
“Why?”
“I was going to kiss you that's why, but oh well you
didn’t come outside.”
“I’m sorry, I’m not very good with hints.”
“Yeah I can see that.” he said.
When we hung up my head
was spinning and my heart was jumping in loops. I didn’t know what to think or
do because we both were taken and I was actually friends with Shell (His
girlfriend at the time). At that moment though I just wanted to slap myself in the
face. I knew I was with Roy but I really wanted that kiss and I was determined
to get it.
A couple days went by and he came over
to my house again. School was out for Christmas break and New Year’s so it was
the perfect time for him and I to sneak around. We watched movies and this time
chilled in my bedroom with the door open. All along while we watched the movie
sitting so close together I longed so bad for his touch. I wanted to feel the
touch of his lips all over my body and as I sighed at the thought of it, it was
like he could sense it because he smiled. When he left I made sure to follow
him out.
He
pushed me up against his truck and kissed me passionately. It was better than I
had imagined and it was so passionately that it sent shivers down my spine and
it sent me to cloud nine all at the same time. I knew right then and there that
I was in love with him.
We kissed for what seemed like ever but I didn’t mind.
I just wanted to cherish the moment. The only disadvantage was he was a little
taller than I, but his blue Nissan did a good job at helping. After the kiss I
went back in and I heard my mom say,
“Miss Mitchell you have a
boyfriend remember that and even though I despise his guts that was wrong out
of you. If you are going to smooch on that boy at least break up with the one
you got first.”
I nodded then went to my room and started banging my
head against my wall because that’s what I do when I get into sticky
situations. It’s painful and I always have a headache after wards but it helps.
